Family Fun Phone Sex

I hate this! I was starting to think that it was getting to be all horrible calls all the time. When he asked me if I was into incest I think I’ve been trained to think, “oh that means you want to talk about me being a mommy fucking my toddlers”

Cause when I started the first guy to ask me if I was into incest wanted that and I made the mistake of feeling relieved. Like, of I was scared of pedo stuff, so incest, okay that’s easy. When I thought of incest I thought of Daddy/Daughter roll play, or Brother/Sister. I thought of ADULT family members. And yes, gross and wrong, totally. Though I don’t judge anyone who wants to act out that fantasy. And well, every call since that last one when guys have wanted to talk about incest it always involved a kid(s). That to me is like giving someone a heads up that your apartment is really really messy and failing to mention the biting dog that you house there as well.

Anyway, Finally I get a family fun call that I can handle. He wanted to be brother and sister. I was to be thirteen (hmmmm, iffy) and he was gonna be seventeen (that somehow made it better).

Just like any other phone sex conversation except I added big brother to everything, “Oh I love my big brothers big hard cock,” “Mmmm big brother! I want my big brothers cum all over my face,” “Cum all over you little sisters face Brother.”

It’s like we didn’t have names, he would respond to everything with, “Oh yes little sister!”

It seems kind of like a funny fetish to roll play, cause especially when done over the phone all you have to keep you in it is calling the other one by their relation to you and maybe adding in a few, “Oh, I hope Mom doesn’t catch us!” in there.

Anyway, this call was a bit of a relief, two adults pretending to be teen siblings having sex, seems like nothing in comparison.

Little Sister.MP3

I just thought of this song. Not that I’ve ever suspected Rufus and Martha of incest…. I’m mean come on… Rufus is the gay messiah.

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Humiliation Guy Called Again

Remember Humiliation guy? A few week ago he called me for the first time, it was the October 31st entry, “We’ll Take Care of Each Other.”

The call was only for 6 or so minutes. It was very much of the same. Question after question, telling me he was sorry that I had to go through this, that I was made to feel humiliated like this.

The last thing he asked me was, “Do you think you could leave if you wanted to, do you think you could get away?” He was referencing to my (characters) parents who have been sexually molesting me since I was young, still do it to me and now to my own children as well.

I had no idea what to say…. what he wanted the answer to be…. I stayed silent for a moment and he repeated himself, “Could you, could you get out of this?”

“Ummmmm, no. I don’t think so. I don’t think I would no what to do without them, I don’t think I would know how to feel any other way.”

He was silent…. “Yeah, me too. Thank you, Goodbye.”

He hung up, leaving me just as speechless as the last time I spoke with him.

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Kink Of The Week: ASPHYXIOPHILIA

Kink Of The Week: ASPHYXIOPHILIA

This is someone who is sexually aroused by losing control over their ability to breath.

You can do it along (totally dangerous!), or with a partner (a trusted trusted trusted and skilled partner please!).

I have yet to run into this fetish from any of the guys that are calling. Only one guy who wanted to snuff someone out my controlling their breath…. but I don’t think that really applies as the person who was having their breath controlled in this verbal fantasy has absolutely NO sexual arousal over it (in my humble opinion of this imaginary person).

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My Memory Is Failing Me

Well, maybe it is for the best. I had a call earlier today, that I wrote a little note afterwords cause I wanted to write a post about it but I didn’t have it in me to write it right at that moment. I just looked at the scribbles, “pedo… parking lot.”

I can’t remember that call for the life of me. ….honestly, I’m not trying too hard to dig around in my brain. But, I have no recollection of it. It was about 5 hours ago now. Nothing. No details. I know it was a pedo call. I remember that much, and that was the words I used to remind me to write about it. And also that we were in a parking lot. But what happened during the call, the specifics, what the mans voice sounded like, nothing. I can’t remember a bit of it.

That is probably for the best. I don’t know why I am still doing this. I could do it no problem (or not many deep ones) if this subject matter never came up. It was gone for a while but seemed to have surface again. It’s not worth the money. It could be if I was really dedicating myself to it or if these kinds of calls never came up. But these calls are not worth the money.

I mean during a 30 min call say I make about $22.50, well that is pretty good for 30 minutes of work. But honestly, if a guys came up to me on the street handles me a list of sentences and said, “I’ll give you $50 bucks if you say these things to me.” I would say no. Maybe I’m only doing it cause there is just as much anonymity for me as there is for the guys, even more so. It’s not worth the money, but it is money. Is it worth the thoughts. Well. Maybe. The thoughts are horrible, the questions are horrible, but all of them fascinating and questions that should be questioned and discussed. I’ve been watching random TV on the internet and some brunt DVDs of shows that a friend gave me. Randomly putting on episodes I watched three shows that talked about pedophiles.

The overwhelming consensus is, horrible scum of the earth, worse than the devil, no solution, put them in jail forever. No talk of where does this come from. At one point these horrible scums of the earth, worse than the devil pedophiles where children themselves. They were someone’s child. They are humans. Is there a way to stop this in someone before it happens? Are people born this way or made this way? Why are some people pedophiles? Is there any way to make those feelings go away or never start? I don’t ever hear about people looking at these questions. Just saying horrible horrible scum and evil subhuman people should go to jail, have their dicks cut off, etc. I don’t think there is anyone who really wants to be a pedophile or tries to become a pedophile. There seem to be some pedophiles out there who do think it is totally okay.

There is something to be said for hearing someone’s voice as they climax. I don’t know these people at all, at all. But I hear them cum. That is intimate. That burns into your brain. The money is not worth it, but that might be. The feelings and thoughts that I’m having because of it might be. I just don’t know what to do with them.

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My Very First Caller Called Again

My very first caller called again. I wrote about him and our call in my second entry on October 15th, “Oh Sorry… It’s My First Day?

The dispatcher called me saying, “Okay I have a call for Stacy.”

I responded with a thank you, and started to look up that charter’s profile on their website (I had yet to play this girl) and waited for the lines to be switched.

The dispatcher chimes in again, “Okay, I’ve got Stacy on the line for you. You two have a great time!”

“Well hey Stacy!” I hear his voice and recognize it. I recognize it like you recognize your Grandmothers voice after not speaking to her for over a year. The way that you don’t even recognize it you just know. A voice that you know so well that even after a long period of time without speaking as soon as you hear it, you don’t even need a moment to remember you just know who it is.

I was playing a different character this time, so from his knowledge he had never spoken to me before so I still had to go through my routine of getting all of his information. I started asking him all the questions but didn’t write anything down. I just went back to my sent mail and found him.  I changed a few details of what character, date and how much time he wanted to order from me and sent off the form for the office to process.

As he was in the middle of blurting out his credit card I had a brief moment of, “what if this is a different guy and I’m gonna have to get him to repeat himself…. all of this info cause I actually don’t have it.” But that wasn’t more thank a thought, I knew without a doubt who he was, even if I couldn’t remember his full name exactly I knew exactly who he was. I found that first e-mail, made the few small changes and went on with the call.
Chatting with this familiar voice that I now know has really lodged it’s self in my brain.

The call was really same old same old crap and probably not worth hashing out or getting into. My character was a mother, two kids, a boy and a girl. I now think I know why all the girls who make their characters mothers always seem to make it that they have to kids, a boy and a girl. Most men who call and want to talk about kids tend to seem to want to talk about both genders, they don’t necessarily like boys over girls but just kids. But then if you have one of each you can please any of these guys with both, or one or the other.

The bio didn’t say how old the kids were just like last time I spoke to this guy. Last time he picked an older looking character though, I could get away with telling him my kids were teenagers. Even though that didn’t really help he just wanted me to talk to him about when they were young. But this time he chose a girl that from her photos looked like she was 21 herself.

I always to to just zone out as much as possible, but the thing that they always really seem to want right when they are about to cum and to get them over the edge is for you to talk about the kids. I would start with normal stuff, “She is so hungry for your cock, you fuck that slut, etc” All of these things I can forget what we are talking about and it’s just sex talk. But they would instruct me to say how old they are. The keys words that really make then cum are the age, or things like ‘little’. So, I can’t really block it out not when, “Are you gonna cum all over her 5 year old little slut face?” are coming out of my mouth, worried that a neighbor might here me. You take any normal, rough, hot, sexy and filthy dirty talk you can think of and add the age of a young young kid to it and that is what they want. You try to zone out as much as you can while still doing that, doing what ever they tell you to do while trying not to be heard by anyone past these thin apartment walls.

Anyway, the call was just a call. It really isn’t that worth writing about since the last time I wrote about this guy. The thing I really took note of was his voice. It really shocked me how well I knew exactly who it was. So much so that I feel like I know without a doubt that if I ran into him one day, some random man who says hello to me, I would be able to place it right away and know who he is. Good thing we live so far apart.

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Wow, You have a lot of ‘girlfriends’

I wonder if you can have a fetish for telling one type of sex worker about your escapades with other form of sex work.

I didn’t get too many words in chatting with todays caller (totally fine by me). All he seemed interested in doing was telling me about sex he would pay for. Well, he called all of these woman his girlfriends but they were clearly all stories about sex workers he just called them his girlfriends and left off the part at the end that goes, “And then I paid her and she left.

He would ask me all of these question like, have you even given someone head in a car? I would respond with a yes and then he would go into a story about how he met one of his girlfriends when he was driving down the street, he saw her there and pulled over and she just came in the car and started sucking him off.

Or, do you like getting spanked? I would respond with a yes and he would launch into another story about one of his girlfriends and how she loves to be spanked.

It went on like this for 20 minutes. Until he finished and other one of his stories and I said to him, “Wow, your a lucky guy with all those ladies after you.”

“Yeah, they just love me. Just like you do right sweetheart.”

Yes, just as much as they do I’m sure.

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Kink Of The Week: GERONTOPHILIA

9lwb3papmlmvptfgs5ssKink Of the Week: GERONTOPHILIA

This is a person who is sexually attracted to people of at least a 15 year age difference from themselves. The object of there affection can be 15 year older or younger or more than 15 years. This is only a fetish if they are actually aroused by someone 5 years younger or older. So, like a gold digger wouldn’t count. But a cougar or cradle robber would be into gerontophilia.

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