My Very First Caller Called Again

My very first caller called again. I wrote about him and our call in my second entry on October 15th, “Oh Sorry… It’s My First Day?

The dispatcher called me saying, “Okay I have a call for Stacy.”

I responded with a thank you, and started to look up that charter’s profile on their website (I had yet to play this girl) and waited for the lines to be switched.

The dispatcher chimes in again, “Okay, I’ve got Stacy on the line for you. You two have a great time!”

“Well hey Stacy!” I hear his voice and recognize it. I recognize it like you recognize your Grandmothers voice after not speaking to her for over a year. The way that you don’t even recognize it you just know. A voice that you know so well that even after a long period of time without speaking as soon as you hear it, you don’t even need a moment to remember you just know who it is.

I was playing a different character this time, so from his knowledge he had never spoken to me before so I still had to go through my routine of getting all of his information. I started asking him all the questions but didn’t write anything down. I just went back to my sent mail and found him.  I changed a few details of what character, date and how much time he wanted to order from me and sent off the form for the office to process.

As he was in the middle of blurting out his credit card I had a brief moment of, “what if this is a different guy and I’m gonna have to get him to repeat himself…. all of this info cause I actually don’t have it.” But that wasn’t more thank a thought, I knew without a doubt who he was, even if I couldn’t remember his full name exactly I knew exactly who he was. I found that first e-mail, made the few small changes and went on with the call.
Chatting with this familiar voice that I now know has really lodged it’s self in my brain.

The call was really same old same old crap and probably not worth hashing out or getting into. My character was a mother, two kids, a boy and a girl. I now think I know why all the girls who make their characters mothers always seem to make it that they have to kids, a boy and a girl. Most men who call and want to talk about kids tend to seem to want to talk about both genders, they don’t necessarily like boys over girls but just kids. But then if you have one of each you can please any of these guys with both, or one or the other.

The bio didn’t say how old the kids were just like last time I spoke to this guy. Last time he picked an older looking character though, I could get away with telling him my kids were teenagers. Even though that didn’t really help he just wanted me to talk to him about when they were young. But this time he chose a girl that from her photos looked like she was 21 herself.

I always to to just zone out as much as possible, but the thing that they always really seem to want right when they are about to cum and to get them over the edge is for you to talk about the kids. I would start with normal stuff, “She is so hungry for your cock, you fuck that slut, etc” All of these things I can forget what we are talking about and it’s just sex talk. But they would instruct me to say how old they are. The keys words that really make then cum are the age, or things like ‘little’. So, I can’t really block it out not when, “Are you gonna cum all over her 5 year old little slut face?” are coming out of my mouth, worried that a neighbor might here me. You take any normal, rough, hot, sexy and filthy dirty talk you can think of and add the age of a young young kid to it and that is what they want. You try to zone out as much as you can while still doing that, doing what ever they tell you to do while trying not to be heard by anyone past these thin apartment walls.

Anyway, the call was just a call. It really isn’t that worth writing about since the last time I wrote about this guy. The thing I really took note of was his voice. It really shocked me how well I knew exactly who it was. So much so that I feel like I know without a doubt that if I ran into him one day, some random man who says hello to me, I would be able to place it right away and know who he is. Good thing we live so far apart.

4 responses

  1. Wow, I saw the link from Pharyngula, and read a few posts to find out what your job was like. I had no idea you were there to facilitate fantasies about pedophilia and sex abuse victims. As long as the Patriot Act is letting the government listen to our phone calls, and read our emails, they might as well be checking up on your pedo customers to make sure they aren’t acting on their fantasies.

    Humanity – we think we’re so good, so moral, so “humane” at the core, but how many of us our hiding some sick desire? So many of our fantasies are centered around sex and violence (just look at popular movies and video games). We may walk upright and wear clothing, but we’re apes at the core, prone to acts of greed and violence.

    It sounds like this job is getting to you. (It sounds like the world is getting to me, huh?) I hope you can find less disturbing work.

    1. Hey Jackal, Thanks for the comments. & Sorry for the late reply. I haven’t been blogging here as much. I’ve still been writing about my calls, I just haven’t been posting them online, perhaps I’ll start again.

      I like reading your comment a lot. It is intensely interesting what goes in in our heads. And to get to hear some of those things when you give someone the gift of anonymity (well, I spose it is less of a ‘gift’ when they are paying for it per minute!). The job was very much getting to be at the moment that I wrote this post. And it does, it is hard for it not to. The work is not for everyone.

      Though, I have come to look at is an incredible important service. And do absolutely believe that we can’t truly judge someones fantasies & what goes in their heads, but can only judge their actions.

      Again, thanks for the comment! I am going to be spending more time on here and posting some of the calls I have written about over the past few months. I look forward to more conversation.

  2. Great blog. I can appreciate what you are writing as I am a PSO of 14 years myself. Keep up the good writing.

  3. Hey Kelly! As I mentioned to Jackal, above, sorry for the late reply. I haven’t been on here much, but am looking forward to getting back into it.

    Thanks for the note. Wow, 14 years. FAR longer than I have been at this. You must have some wonderful stories and insights. I’m flattered that you enjoy the blog. Hope to hear from you again. And PLEASE feel free to share some of your stories or comments / thoughts on mine! It is great to get another PSO’s opinion.

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The fictional play is based on a blog I wrote while working as a phone sex operator and I did that job over 15 years ago.

The blog you’re looking now.

Even then friends thought phone sex was kind of light and fluffy – how can there be any money in that? It already seemed old fashioned. A friend told me, he assumed I must have been lying and just didn’t want to admit that I was camming. I think that says more about what he was googling than where the money is in online sex work. 

I wasn’t lying and it wasn’t light and fluffy. You might assume now – 15 years later – phone sex… NOW it must be old fashioned. It must be a thing of the past like your  landline – the things that people wanted to talk about then they still want to talk about now. They are the things that often (hopefully) the closest you get to them are only in your mind. 

The blog was bad. It is bad… I’m cringing while rereading it now.

It was anonymous. My daily views were like zero to two. I sent it to a couple of friends who just expressed their concern for me and how they read some of it, but they weren’t able to keep reading it. 

One day, my phone was going a little berserk, and I was getting notification after notification. I freaked out. I went online and I saw that a more popular blog had found mine and reblogged it and in less than 24 hours it had been viewed like over 10K times. I logged on and I made it private so that no one could look at it. I know 10K doesn’t seem viral by today’s standards… I mean, I posted my mom on Tiktok and she got over 8 million – but it was different then and at the time, 10K in a day was way too much. Why put something online, if all you do once people look at it is hide it? I wrote quickly and badly. And I was writing honestly… and honestly… I…